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Being a momma to F O U R (yes you read that right, four) kiddos, a mental health professional who specializes in crisis, a college student (honestly, I think I will always be in school), and a professional photographer (https://shquellebrownphotography.mypixieset.com/ if you're interested in my art), finding the time to sit down and continue to proof, edit, create poetry, gets limited. I find myself having to be extremely dedicated AND stern on time management.

I have found myself some nights...

As of date, I have sold 4 books. I know that number is probably alarming to some. That subtle, "all that hard work and ONLY 4?" however I come to say.... I SOLD 4 FRICKEN BOOKS!!!! Wildly amazing because just ehhhhh, 3 months ago, I didn't even think I'd sell any. I thought to myself, "who will want to read my poetry book, be for real with yourself." However I stand (well sit) here to say, 4 people have my whole heart on those pages. 4!!?

I know the numbers will grow eventually, but the...

Although the day had passed, the excitement and wonder has not. I woke up this morning still on the new adventure high that I seem to chase time to time in life. Although sales were minimal yesterday, I still find myself encouraged and more less proud.

Proud that the younger version of myself who felt like there was no room for my voice, has one now. I know she is content that she no longer has to hold her breath. If that isn't the purpose of it all, what is?

All my love,

Shay

As some of you know, outside of being an author, mother, wife, student, and employee I also add photographer to that list too.

This weekend I had the opportunity to photograph some amazing athletes at a volleyball tournament. I walked away with some amazing photographs but also remembered some of the best memories from when I played. One of those memories triggered when the team I was shooting was 24/23 on the scoreboard and down to the wire. I remember when I played these moments hit HARD....

Emotions.

That's it, that's the word.

When you read it, how did it make you feel? Slightly off center? Did you shift a little in your seat? Did you roll your eyes?

As much as you try not to feel any that aren't lead with testosterone, you still have them, all of them. As much as this society crams down your throat that you are to NOT feel them and if you do, you're weak...I still want you to know they matter. You matter. Your mental health MATTERS.

I know it is a taboo topic of our men being...

This weekend I get to not only watch my baby sister get married but I also have the honor of being her Maid of Honor. I can't begin to explain the bittersweet feelings that rise seeing the once little blue eyed beauty that fit in my arms, becoming. Not only becoming a woman, but a whole WIFE.

This brought me to a thought about sisterhood, particularly being the oldest sister. Little did I know at the young age of eight, that she would be setting some foundations I carry with me as a parent....